Monday, 24 April 2017

The Great Boyfriend Debate!

Hey Guys x

Soooooooooooooo... I'm on Tinder.

It's been about a month, and it's made me think about a lot of things (and it's given me a lot of blog post ideas, which I'm hoping will be as hilarious as I think they are!)

But one thing it made me think about is having a boyfriend.

Now, I've had a few successful, and many unsuccessful tinder experiences, and I've actually made a genuine friend on it, which is great because we talk nearly every day and it doesn't seem like we know each other from tinder any more.

But it got me thinking about having a boyfriend, what that means, and why it's such a big deal.

For example, whenever I watch any movie (aside from horror movies, most of the time) whether it's a romance, drama, comedy or something else, there is at least one character desperately seeking out a romantic relationship.

And I don't know how I feel about that.

With my friends, there isn't one of us that's constantly worrying about being single, like the movies would suggest.

And it made me wonder how important having a boyfriend is.

Like, I've been obsessed with being in a relationship for years.


Wanting this so much has, in a way, stopped me from appreciating the stage of my life that I'm at now.

I'm 20 years old. I'm allowed to do my exams and have fun with friends, and read and write and blog and make things and talk to guys on tinder without the fact that I'm not in a relationship looming over me.

I should also be able to do this without worrying that it'll never happen to me. I always have the worry in the back of my mind that nothing is ever going to happen for me. I'll be a 40 year old with nothing to hold me down or make me happy.

And I know that this probably won't happen, but I don't even know why it matters to me so much anyway.

I guess the point of this post is that, it's taken me 20 years to realise that there is SO much more to me than the girl who doesn't have a boyfriend.

And I'm looking forward to finding out the loves, hobbies and friends of the girl that no longer cares about having a boyfriend.

Thanks for reading.

What are your thoughts about this? Comment below!

Lou xx

Sunday, 23 April 2017

Driving Anxiety | 2

Hey Guys x

Sorry for the lack of posts this month! I've been busy and uninspired, which is never a good combination! But I'm back with a few ideas for some posts that I'm really excited to write!

Back in January 2015, I wrote a post about my anxiety surrounding driving. At the time, I was in the middle of lessons, and I don't think I ever did a follow-up post, or even said how everything ended.

So I thought I'd write this post, over two years later, to talk about how I stand with driving right now.

With those lessons before, I had pre-booked about 10 lessons, and was gonna do more depending on how I felt.

However, once I finished my tenth lesson, a huge weight lifted off of me. I was so happy to think that I had a few weeks without having to get in the drivers seat. So I didn't book more.

I told myself I'd give it a few weeks, then book more lessons with a different instructor (because I was never that keen on my instructor. He wasn't awful, but he wasn't particularly nice or supportive either), but I didn't.

It's been two years, and I still haven't.

I thought I'd get over this and decide to drive, especially because I have a hate for many forms of public transport. But the fear and anxiety is still extremely prevalent, so much so that even thinking about driving a car really does scare me.

In the back of my mind, I know that I will have to learn how to drive sooner or later, for convenience if nothing else. But right now, I can't see it happening.

From a practical point of view, I don't currently have a job. Driving lessons are expensive as hell. If I do them, I want to do them until I take my test and then can drive, I want to be able to commit to them, which means that I need to have the money to afford all the lessons.

And then you have to look at the companies. I have it in my head that I'd really like to be taught by a female, just to see if it's a different experience than I had last time, being taught by a male. But I feel weird asking for a female instructor specifically, it's weird.

And then there's just the fear that something bad will happen, like I'll crash the car or get too nervous, or someone will beep me. It scares me so much!

But yeah, those are some of my driving fears.

Thank you for reading.

Do you drive? Are you scared of driving? Comment below!

Lou xx

Sunday, 9 April 2017

Why I Write Fanfiction

Hey Guys x

Unless you write it or read it, fanfiction can be quite a taboo topic.

People don't understand it, think it's weird or gross, or think that everything in fanfic turns out to be a carbon copy of fifty shades - which obviously isn't the case!

Now, you may or may not know this, but I write fanfiction. It's a hobby, but it's also one of the most important parts of my life, particularly when blogging has to take a back seat to uni work.

Right now I'm three weeks away from finishing the fanfic in the picture above, and 13 chapters into my new fic, and I stopped and thought about why I write fanfiction.

So I wanted to talk about this today. And right now, I don't have a definitive answer.

My fanfiction 'career' started with a boyband called 'The Wanted'

This is my first ever fanfiction. It didn't even have a name!

When I wrote this, I wasn't gonna put it online at all. I wrote it purely for my own pleasure, and I love that. I didn't even know what fanfiction was, all I knew was that I wanted to create a character, and put her in a situation where she could fall in love with one of my favourite members of my favourite boy band.

Then I came across wattpad. It was easy to use, I could read fics as well as write them, and SO many people were doing what I was doing, so it seemed so casual.

To this day, this fic is my second most popular, and I have no idea why because the plot is cliché, and the writing is definitely not what my writing is now. But I'm glad that people are enjoying it! You can read it here if you so wish, but as I said, it's not my best work at all!

Anyway, after I saw the positive response on that fic, I decided I might just try one more.

This was in 2012. By 2014, I had a further 6 finished stories up, all about or featuring The Wanted, all with different plots and (hopefully) better writing each time.

With these, I wrote them because I loved the band as people. In my mind, it was (and still is) using characters that already exist to help move along a completely independent story (or several!)

But then, I changed course.

The Celebrity Hunger Games was an idea that I had, that I'm so proud of! I mean, I doubt I was the first to think of it, but I loved it. I really committed to it too, I spend two years writing this!

I picked 24 celebrities, created back stories for each of them (because they weren't playing celebrities in the fic) and plonked them into the world that was created by Suzanne Collins.

I had celeb interviewers, family members, cameos, EVERYTHING! I had so much fun writing this, because I had a clear path. I'd read the first Hunger Games book, so I knew the order in which everything was supposed to happen. Unlike my The Wanted fics, I wasn't completely alone with my planning.

I've found it's also really fun to kill people off (haha!) and not have people upset with you, because that's just how it's supposed to be!

However, during the time of writing this (May 2015 to be exact) I fell in love with Marvel.

Lo and behold, I had found a new muse - and Rogue was born!

Rogue has been the biggest part of my life for the last year and a bit.

It all started with the idea of, what would I do if I was a superhero? What powers would I have? Which Avenger would I date? etc.

Rogue is a completely original character, so my main goal was to put her into the Avengers world and see how she would deal with everything that the team faces. Turns out, she's done really well!

The story tends to follow some of the Marvel movies, but there are also some chapters that are completely mine, such as the last five chapters that I've put up where I kill people off!

I've poured my heart into this, honestly. I'm gonna do a whole post about finishing it when I actually finish it, but I guess I started writing it so that I could take my love for Marvel off the screen and let my imagination take over.

I think another reason that I've written all of these is that, they're basically a short story shortcut. Something is already pre-determined for you, either your characters, your plot, your supporting characters, or just a simple idea. I've written 9 short stories this way, and I will continue to do so.

Right now, I'm writing my next fic, based on both the Avengers, and one of my favourite TV shows. I won't say too much here, but I'm hoping to upload the first chapter in mid-May, after I've finished Rogue and had a few weeks break from uploading! But when I upload the first chapter, I'll write a post about it and link it here!

Anyway, that's a bit about why I write fanfictions. I'm sure there's more to be teased out here, so I might do another post about fanfiction soon, maybe trying to tackle the stigma towards it.

Thank you for reading.

What do you think about fanfiction? Comment below!

Lou xx

Friday, 7 April 2017

Get Out | Film Review

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Hey Guys x

I know I've been rubbish with my posting this past two months! But I've decided that I'm not apologising for it because I definitely should not be apologising for putting uni work above my blog at this moment.

But blogging will definitely be a top priority after May, when I'm done for the year!

Now, let's talk about Get Out!

There has been so many reviews and opinions about this film since it came out, I thought I'd add my two pennies worth here on the blog!

This film is about a guy called Chris who is taken by his girlfriend Rose to meet her parents. It doesn't seem like a big deal, until we establish the fact that Chris is black, Rose is white, and her parents have no idea about his race! So understandably, Chris is a bit sceptical. However, when he actually gets to her parents house, he finds that, maybe, he was right to be worried. Is he reading too much into things, or is there actually something wrong with Rose's family?

I LOVED this film!

As a fan of horror, this film was just everything I wanted it to be. It had a great mix of tension, horror, humour, and things that you don't understand until you watch it again!

The character of Chris is one that was so realistic! I mean, if you've ever been in the situation of being the only person of your race in a room, you'll completely get where he's coming from. I'm in this situation many times a week through uni, so I definitely get it and I think it was written and played perfectly.

Speaking of written, it was written and directed by Jordan Peele. I think this was his film directorial debut, which is incredible because this film was amazing! Honestly, I can only hope to have at least half the directorial debut he had!

The actors were amazing too, they all played their parts perfectly and really made the film as perfect as it was.

I'm obviously not going to spoil it, but the twist in the film is one that I really didn't see coming. It was such an amazing, original concept that I never would have thought of, but it just worked. It worked so well!

It's the kind of film that you have to see twice. I saw it twice and the second time was even better than the first because, with context, your eyes are opened to all these little subtle nuances that you just don't see first time round. It's also really interesting to talk to people after seeing the film, everyone has something to say about it and that's so fun!

But yeah, if you're of the right age (I think it's over 15) then go and see this film. I feel like everyone will be able to take something from it and I have yet to meet a person who didn't like it, at least a little bit!

Thank you for reading.

Will you see this film? Have you already seen it? Tell me in the comments!

Lou xx

Friday, 31 March 2017

March Favourites! | 2017

Hey Guys x

I'm really sorry that I haven't posted a lot this month! It's been really busy trying to get everything done before I broke up from uni.

And April probably won't be any better, because I'll be writing essay after essay trying to finish everything!

However, I always make time for a 'Favourites' post, mainly because I love doing them. I find them so interesting to write and to read.

Anyway, let's get on with the post!

Favourite Movie: Get Out
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WOW. I think I'm gonna do a full post on this within the next week or so, so I really don't want to say too much about it now. However, by next week, I'll have seen it three times with three different people, which tells you how much I loved it!
Seriously, go and watch this if you haven't!

Favourite TV Show: 90210
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My sister and I recently got back into this show, and I'm so happy! I used to watch it when it first came on, but kind of fell out of it as the seasons went on. But watching it again now makes me remember all the reasons that I fell in love with it in the first place. It's an old show but a very entertaining one!

Favourite Song Album: Divide
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I don't think I've ever heard a more perfect album. I'm not even exaggerating, every single song on this album is a freaking masterpiece. My personal favourites have to be 'Dive', 'Supermarket Flowers', 'Nancy Mulligan' and 'Save Myself' but it doesn't really matter because ALL of the songs are incredible! Listen to this album!

Favourite YouTuber(s): Jack and Dean
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Jack and Dean are doing so well right now! They've just released (and are still releasing) the second season of their series 'Jack and Dean of All Trades'. The first episode of season 2 is on YouTube and it is so funny! I feel like I enjoyed that first episode more than the whole first season, which just shows how much they've improved because the first season was so good! I can't wait to see what they do next!

Favourite Music Artist: Ed Sheeran
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I've already spoken about the album, so you know exactly why Ed Sheeran is my favourite music artist of the month. I don't actually think that there's any more that I can add to this. He writes amazing music and his voice is perfect.

Favourite Celebrity: TVD Cast
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As you may or may not know, the Vampire Diaries ended this month, and since then I've been watching cast interviews all the time and falling in love with this group of people! They make the show what it is and I couldn't imagine it without any of them, which is why I feel like it was a good idea to end it after 8 seasons.

Favourite YouTube Video: Guess The Tagline

Hazel Hayes and her friend and fellow YouTuber Cayleigh Maloye made a video guessing movies based on their taglines. As a movie lover, I really loved this video! It was hilarious, but it also taught me a lot about taglines, and how effective they are when it comes to selling a movie. Plus the two girls are just hilarious together anyway, so you have no reason not to watch this!

Random Favourites

The Sleepover Club - DVDs
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When I was younger, the Sleepover Club was my life. Those books made me love reading, and the DVD version was so good! I started re-watching it and I could actually quote some of the episodes word for word! It is so much fun to go back to your childhood and remember what you used to love!

'All That She Can See' Book Cover

Carrie Hope Fletcher has a new book! This is the cover of it, which is absolutely beautiful! I've already pre-ordered it (because I'm such a massive fangirl) and I can't wait to read it when it comes out in July! It may not be your thing, but look how nice the cover is! Look!

The Vampire Diaries
I mentioned this earlier, but this month TVD finished. I usually wait until the DVD comes out to binge watch the series, but I couldn't wait this time. Mainly because twitter was completely spoiling it for me. So I watched it over the course of three nights, and on the last night, I could not stop crying. It was so emotional, particularly the last episode. However, what was even more emotional was realising that I will never watch another new episode, or see a new plot twist unfold. I will never meet a new character or wonder if an existing character is dead, really dead, or someone that Bonnie is about to bring back from the dead. This show has been a part of my life for years, and the fact that it's over it really really sad. I miss it already. I miss having a show like that that I loved from the offset, because I haven't found a show quite like it since.

Thank you for reading!

What have you been loving this month? Comment below!

Lou xx

Monday, 27 March 2017

50 Questions I've Never Been Asked!

Hey Guys x

I haven't done a tag in such a long time! So I thought I'd do one for you guys today!

I found one here on the blog 'Mama's Losin' It' - check it out!

These questions were really interesting, so I thought that I'd get stuck in!

50 Questions

What's Your Favourite Candle Scent?
I don't have a specific favourite, anything sweet and light. I hate heavy, dusky scents!

What Female Celebrity Do You Wish Was Your Sister?
Right now I have three (I'll probably think of more later!), Blake Lively, Emily Blunt and Kat Graham, for different reasons. Blake bakes, and apparently she bakes really well. If she was my sister, we'd hang out and bake and shop all the time! Plus I'd hopefully get her slim genes!
Emily Blunt just looks like the most fun person to hang out with, ever! In fact, I wish she was my best friend because we'd have so much fun!
Kat Graham is so talented. She's an amazing actress, an amazing dancer, and she just looks so much fun to be around. Overall, I'd be happy to have any one of these ladies as my sister!

What Male Celebrity Do You Wish Was Your Brother?
Again, there's probably many that I'm forgetting, but the first ones that popped into my head were Chris Evans, Matt Damon and Anthony Mackie, pretty much because they all look like they'd be so fun to hang out with, to grow up with and to be related to. And they're all successful enough to give me money on a regular basis if I needed it, which is obviously a huge bonus!

How Old Do You Think You'll Be When You Get Married?
In my head, the age is 25-27, I just hope it's not too much later than that!

Do You Know a Hoarder?
I have no idea! Hoarding is never really a topic of conversation when I talk to someone!

Can You Do a Split?
Nope. Nope. Nope.

How Old Were You When You Learned How To Ride a Bike?
I can't remember. I was probably around 10, but that's just a wild guess because I have no idea!

How Many Oceans Have You Swan In?
I don't think I've swam in any!

How Many Countries Have You Been To?
I don't know! I live in England, have been to Wales, two or three different States in America, Spain, the Canary Islands, and some Islands in the Caribbean. That's all I can remember at least!

Is Anyone in Your Family in the Army?

What Would You Name Your Daughter If You Had One?
This literally changes on a weekly basis for me, depending on what I like that week. I usually use my favourites to name my sims babies. Because I've just finished the Vampire Diaries, if I were to have a baby girl tomorrow, I'd probably name her Caroline, after my favourite character (Carrie for short, after my favourite YouTuber!).

What Would You Name Your Son If You Had One?
Boys names are always trickier for me, because I feel like boys are easier to name, which makes me want to name them something really really unique. Again, if I were to stick to the TVD theme, I'd probably name my son Enzo, but then come to regret it a few years later!

What's The Worst Grade You Got On a Test?
A U. That's right, a U. For an actual examination. I did ICT at AS level (the first stage of A-levels, the things that get you into Uni). Half of my course was coursework, the other half was exam. I got an A on my coursework, and a U on the exam (as did the other 5 students on the course, by the way) and finished with a D. Coincidentally, the teachers that taught us at that time have both left the school now so...

What Was Your Favourite TV Show When You Were a Child?
I had many favourites. If we're talking young child, I loved watching 'Maggie and the Ferocious Beast' and 'Max and Ruby' before bed every night, so probably those.

What Did You Dress Up As For Halloween When You Were Eight?
This is such a specific question! To be honest, I've never celebrated Halloween by way of dressing up, so I didn't dress up as anything.

Have You Read Any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight Series?
I've fully completed Twilight, I've read most of the Harry Potter books (I'd read more but I don't own them!) and half of the first Hunger Games, but that was only so that I could write a fanfiction based on it!

Would You Rather Have an American or British Accent?
I like my accent, which is British. But I've recently become obsessed with the Boston accent, and I really think that I'd like to have it, at least to try it out. Watch some Boston-based movies, you'll fall in love with it too!

Did Your Mother Go To College?
Yes she did!

Are Your Grandparents Still Married?
My Grandfather's on both sides are dead, but they were married until they died which I guess counts for something.

Have You Ever Taken Karate Lessons?

Do You Know Who Kermet The Frog Is?
I think so - the character from the Muppets right? The other thing that came into my mind was Sesame Street, but I don't think it's that!

What's The First Amusement Park You've Been To?
Chessington World of Adventures (I think that's how you spell it) on a school trip many years ago.

What Language Would You Like To Be Fluent In?
Spanish. It's always been the language that appealed to me, and I'd love to be able to speak it. Although I gave it a try and definitely have not got a knack for languages!

Do You Spell The Colour as Grey or Gray?
Grey, always.

Is Your Father Bald?

Have You Ever Had Indian Food?
I actually haven't, not at an Indian restaurant anyway!

What's The Name of Your Favourite Restaurant?
Probably Frankie and Benny's

Have You Ever Been to Olive Garden?
Nope! Don't even know what that is, but it sounds beautiful!

Do You Belong To Any Warehouse Stores?
I don't really think I understand the question, so I'm gonna go with no.

What Would You Parents Have Named You If You Were The Opposite Gender?
I just asked my mum this and she said that she has no idea. She knew I was going to be a girl from 20 weeks, and didn't have a name picked out before then.

If You Have a Nickname, What Is It?
I don't really have a nickname, I guess Lou is one, so Lou.

Who's Your Favourite Person In The World?
My best friend, without a doubt.

Would You Rather Live in a Rural Area of the Suburbs?
I feel like it would be really nice to live in the countryside, but I've lived in the city all my life and I'm kind of used to it now.

Can You Whistle?
No! I've always wanted to, but I've never been able to.

Do You Sleep With A Nightlight?
I don't. I don't think I ever have really.

Do You Eat Breakfast Every Morning?
No. If I have an early lecture (once a week), I'll wait until I get home to eat. And if I have a class that starts late, around 2, I'll have brunch at, like, 12.

Do You Take Any Pills or Medication Daily?
Yeah, I do

How Many Times Have You Been To The Hospital?
It this just includes general appointments, more times than I can count!

Have You Ever Seen Finding Nemo?
Yep, many times! None recently though.

Where Do You Buy Your Jeans?
I don't really think about it. Wherever they sell jeans!

What's The Last Compliment You Got?
My best friend messaged me with '*Crying Emoji* you're my fave' - I guess that counts as a compliment?

Do You Usually Remember Your Dreams In The Morning?
Sometimes I do. Funnily enough, this morning I did, but now I don't. I think it was something to do with The Vampire Diaries though!

What Flavour Tea Do You Enjoy?
I don't drink tea.

How Many Pairs of Shoes Do You Currently Own?
I don't know, but definitely not many!

What Religion Will You Raise Your Children To Practise?
I'll raise my children to be open to and explore all religions, to see what interests them.

How Old Were You When You Found Out That Santa Wasn't Real?
I don't think I ever really believed in Santa!

Why Do You Have A Blog?
This is a question that'll take a lot longer to answer than I have time for today!

Thank you for reading.

Comment below some of your own answers to these questions!

Lou xx

Friday, 24 March 2017

Everything Happens For a Reason?

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Hey Guys x

If you haven't seen this movie, I'll give it a little bit of an explanation, but you really should watch it, it's amazing!

Anyway, the main premise of the movie is that there are people who control our 'fate'. They have us all on a specific plan and do their best to keep us on route, such as making us spill coffee on our shirt so that we're 5 minutes late for work, or making someone call us at the exact moment they do.

I really liked the idea of this. When I was watching the film the other day, I got to thinking about what that would mean if it was real, and how much I'd like to know about it.

I think that anyone who's ever said 'Everything happens for a reason' believes in this in some form, whether it's being done by a holy figure or not, they believe that everyone's life has a plan.

I think I believe that too, to an extent. Like, if I just miss a bus or something, I always think that 'well, I obviously wasn't meant to get on that bus', but at the same time, we made 100 completely mundane decisions a day that seemingly have no consequences - do these also get decided for us.

Like, I've not had breakfast yet today and it's 10.12. Will the course of my life change if I decide to wait a bit longer and have lunch, rather than finding something to eat now?

Or, did my decision to skip uni last week change something in the course of my life? Will I fail my exams now? Will I fail to get a job this time next year?

It's a really weird thing to think about. I mean, I know that we'll probably never know the answers to these questions, but it does make going through life a bit easier if you think that every decision you make has already been decided for you. It kind of takes some of the pressure off!

But at the same time, there's also the possibility that none of our decisions have been made. That nothing happens for a reason, everything is down to chance and we have eternal free will.

And to be honest, that's scary as shit!

I'm 20 and have no idea how to be a 20 year old - how could someone just give me the keys to my life? Like 'here you go, you're your own problem now' - I don't want to be my own problem!

Anyway, that's just some random thoughts about one of my favourite movies ever!

Thank you for reading.

What do you think? Does everything happen for a reason?

Lou xx